Military Mind Control at the Mall

Oh God, someone pinch me.

Ouch! Didn't mean that literally.

Oh wow. How shall we begin this?

Sigh...deep breath.. Ok.

Don't ask my why I torture myself by going to the mall. Maybe I feel that I need more material for my show, or maybe I got issues and just wanna get pissed off for no reason. But for whatever reason, I decided an hour ago that Lloyd Center's food court was my destination. Hey, I'm a busy guy, kiss off.

The problem was sanely getting to my destination within that human cage called a mall. I walk in the mall and automatically adjust myself to this machine of an existence I just entered. With the sterile air and perfume smells all around me, all I could hope for is that the sheeple would remain physically be OUT OF MY WAY so I can get to where I'm going without catching some kind of STUPIDITY/ILLITERATE disease of the mind. Damn, I left my mask at home again.

Often in malls the bubbles, shiny objects, smells, music, and bouncing boobs is too much stimuli for one to handle, causing one to feel dizzy and nearly blind as the herd bumps into inanimate objects and each other. I begin to feel ill as my awareness of the mind control in the mall increases to the next level. Am I the only one here that can see?

On the first floor the Portland Police are talking with children, sitting at a table by the Old Navy clothing store handing out police badge stickers to the kiddies. Don't ask about the economy and who's crashing it. Don't ask why we live a police state and why the government is getting ready for martial law. That's just weird.

"I don't wanna fight man," I think to myself. I just wanna get to my destination. Oh god, why am I here? There are so many fat people here now in this mall, what is happening to their minds? What happened to their spirits? Am I the only one that sees the predator hiding behind the trees?

After taking a cell phone picture of the police just to make them nervous, I decide that I'm not looking for a fight. Hey, I'm a nice guy and I'm hungry. Back to the hunt this awkward urban jungle for the least toxic GMO contaminated food. MMM MMM good, they say. Watch out bouncing boobs at 10 clock, look away, look away grasshopper.

I walk carefully into the video game store making sure I don't accidentally slip on a pool of drool, for in this mall there plenty to drool over. Posters are everywhere proudly displaying future soldiers in high tech suits getting ready for some serious combat in a world war three scenario. A large man weighing over 300 lbs of fat leaves the store pushing his baby in a stroller?

I ask, "How was the mind control store today sir?"

Haha, no response, non expected!

After gobbling up whatever road kill I fed myself and hypocritically lecture a random girl on the dangers of GMO food buying the same slop as well, I decide it's time to depart from this fantasy wonderland.

And here she is. My future ex wife. Just kidding. Standing there with her young blond hair and Aryan blue eyes, shes asks,

"Hello sir, could we ask you some questions about what you think about these upcoming movies?"

Uh huh.

"Um, you don't want to talk to me," I say.


Her: "Yes I do."

Me: "No you don't."

Her: "I get paid to ask people about their opinion of these new Hollywood movies."

Me: "I know that. I got a question for you. Why do they call it... Hollywood?" (Hollywood is a magically wand from the holly tree that is being used to mind control the population according to Jordan Maxwell.)

Her: I don't Know.

Me: Exactly

I ended up ranting my head off about the violence and sexual perversion in movies and Hollywood and how that messes up the mind of susceptible children that don't know any better.

Her: "But it's always been that way, that's nothing new."

Me: "!!!!!!!!!!!" I'm outta here.

Her: "No wait. I need to make my money, let me show you some trailers and you can tell me what you think."

Me: "You already know what I'm gonna say lady. You got five minutes, lets go."

(Putting headset on, going over to laptop.)

to be continued later tonight....

This world is going insane. I think some of us got the real human medicine that can heal us back to health.

This world has lost it's mind.

At least it seems that most of the people living in it have.

Everything is backwards. Orwellian. Confusing. Very, very odd....

Stupidity is in and is sexy as hell.

Intelligence and Wisdom is frightening to the masses with a dangerous reputation as a guaranteed buzz kill.

I walk into a restaurant, a bar, a supermarket. The eyes of the crowd find their way to me as my face is recognized by the local cable TV viewers and it's as if I can actually read their very thoughts and sense their feelings.


And the feelings do not feeling loving, they do not feel empathetic. They feel like FEAR and SPITE. Bafflement.

"There's that crazy motherfucker from TV. WTF! Dark Skinned fuck who thinks he knows something. Asshole, talking to me reality, who the fuck is he?"


Welcome to my life. Welcome to my little world (Or nightmare as Alice Cooper put it in the 1970s), My passion and intensity for liberty and spiritual freedom is SCARY to the fellow mammals living with me in this technological / hypnotic control grid. The poor things have had their mind raped, they lost the ability to recognize a friend that IS trying to help them and their children.

Maybe I should walk around going "Boo! Hey you! Boo! That's right! It me! That guy from TV that talks about the scary stuff! Boo!"

Often I cannot find the words to describe how strange all of this is.

It is not easy to articulate how bizarre it seems to live in a world where we have access so much information about our planet, ourselves, and situation, yet.....our peers do nothing but scoff at our desperate attempts to get them to WAKE UP to something larger than their own little world.

Is it the victim mentality?

Something else?

Perhaps they are in a state of amnesia?

Is it that they subconsciously want to learn a lesson about the errors of their ways? Like the drug addict that keeps going and going until he loses everything?

What the hell is it? The chemtrails?! Ha!

Without a doubt, there is something is going on on this planet that ONLY a small percentage of the human population seems to be aware of. I'm not only of the well known plot to create an official World Government or New World Order run by a criminal elite. I speak of the nature of the universe and the potential new cycle that may be underway which could literally change (not end) our world as we know it. In all honesty, I believe these changes are coming and that the shift in consciousness that so many speak of will not come with a soft landing, but with a series of bangs, and booms. Sorry folks, I wouldn't wager your weeks check on the space aliens coming to save you either......

Our comfort zone will soon change rapidly and the old world will fade as our ability to survival will now INSTANTLY be based on our ability to come together with like minded people who can increase our changes of making it through the raging storm. And some storms have already arrived. It will come down to survival and the ability to adapt to working together and coming into a greater harmony with nature and mother Earth. This will be like a splash of ice cold water to the prisoners still living in this machine like colony of robot humans that falsely believe they are free.

I have many goals. Some goals have yet to be created. Some goals have yet to be fulfilled. At this moment in time, I feel the desire to articulate my vision to bring people together of like minds before the crisis begins.

Most of you reading this now know what is coming. We all know about the problem. What we still do not know is what to do about it, where we are going to be living, if we will still have a job, if we will be single or in a relationship, if we will be living in a conventional home, a car for a home, or a tent. Some things in life.... WE JUST DON'T KNOW! Take a deep breath.

While many things coming in the future may seem OUT OF OUR CONTROL, we need to be able to develop the foresight to zone in and identify the things that we can change. We must develop the eyesight to see the things that we are meant to see. We have to harness the ability to truly quiet our thoughts and hear the things we are supposed to hear.

In these coming years, our world is likely to be turned upside down and this is not a time to be twiddling our thumbs at the local pub whining to ourselves, "Poor me, poor me, pour me another drink."

New information about the nature of reality is flowing like a river. Stick out your hand and grab what you can. I can only show you the door and invite you into my world. I can't do it for you and make everything right for you, or give you the perfect solutions. No one can do that for me, and when we as humans realize that we are independently responsible for own growth and salvation, that is the moment when we begin to grow up.

Let us kick our fears to the curb without mercy and welcome into our lives the person we were supposed to be. Allow the sheeple to drink their poisonous Kool-aid in their own self created Jones town. Take a deep breath and send them the love that they are lacking in their world with a deeper understanding of everyone's free will.

There are mysteries about this reality that keep us awake in the dark of night. There are many questions we may be asking ourselves that we would never do in front of our family or peers. A few key questions remain in the back of countless minds:

"Did we as souls choose to come into this particular time / space reality to achieve a certain goal?"

"Are we here collectively as souls to witness some amazing change in our society that will evolve our soul into the next level?"

"Is there a reason why humans have a unique consciousness and understanding of self that is so very different than the rest of the animal kingdom?"

"Is there a reason we have such an amazing imagination?"

"Where did it come from? Where did WE REALLY COME FROM?"

"Are we alone in the universe? Are we also ants in an ant farm living under a larger system too big for our minds to comprehend?"

"Are we gods or masters in training?"


For now, some things in the world may continue to remain a mystery. But for myself, in this phase of my life that I am in now, I am locked and loaded on one particular thought:

WHENEVER I EXIT THIS PLANET AND PHYSICAL BODY, I WILL DO SO WITH NO FEAR BECAUSE I'LL BE LEAVING WITH NO REGRETS. WHEN I GO MAY NOT BE UP TO ME, BUT I'M GOING INTO THE NEXT REALM WITH AN INTERNAL PEACE AND I WONT BE LOOKING BACK. I'LL BE MOVING STRAIGHT AHEAD. FOR NOW ON THIS EARTH, I'M GOING TO DO WHAT i WAS BORN TO DO.

Perhaps you may choose to do the same. It's up to you. Talk to again in the near future my friends.

Alex Ansary

Portland Community Media is going broke, here comes the first big slash!

It's been an amazing experience at PCMTV since it became a critical part of my life in 2004. Although PCMTV is not going away today, the continued collapse of our county's financial situation will surely change the facility as we know it in only a matter of time.

I have been warning about this about for some time now and the response from the staff at PCMTV has been the same response I've gotten from other people in the world that I talk to about other major events happening in the world.

First you face heavy waves of denial.

When that denial erodes and the severity of the situation sits in, you then witness a justification for why it has to be that way or why it can't be fixed.

It has been announced via email only an hour ago that PCMTV will be slashing it's hours of operation. This follows the layoff of what THEY describe as 1.5 people. There are also plans to layoff 3.5 more people by April. This follows the collection of $50.00 from each producer that plans on using PCMTV equipment in 2009.

It's no secret that the Obama administration has provided a highly disturbing sense of false hope concerning our country's financial future. It's alarming to continually see PCMTV leadership pin their hopes on a solution from Washington. It's a fact that the City of Portland today is not willing to support PCMTV for much longer if they can find a way out of it.

PCMTV is a valuable asset that's able to get out critical information that otherwise won't be head or seen on the mainstream networks. Its upsetting that there won't be public outcry over the potential collapse of PCMTV. The public won't even know for the most part.

But how can PCMTV survive as it is when the staff that currently works there seems to have lost the passion for the facility and what it can really do to help provide perspective and information that the people are really starving for? Most of the employees are simply shaking in their boots, hoping the axe won't point their way. In their minds, that means giving themselves some insurance by acting like good workers that keep their mouths shut when poor policies and fiscal decisions are made that jeopardize the future of PCMTV, a gem of community access TV that has helped myself and others reach much of the community and in some cases, the world.

While my own show may be popular to some in Portland and on the world wide web, within the halls of PCMTV I'm just another person and will not be given any special treatment. This blog is not just about my show. It's about everybody that is apart of the real PCMTV family. It's also PCMTV's ability to continue to provide health care for PCMTV employees. That part is still intake now that cuts have been made, but what is the long term solution to a problem that is just beginning? If you can't address that, then the situation at PCMTV will get much worse.

Each week, the facility gets positive emails about the show I produce, but I only hear about it if it comes across my friend's desk. Otherwise, you'd never know. In fact, there is not doubt my show makes some staff very uncomfortable. Body language and looks of fear tell it all.

They don't look uncomfortable to the point that they would attempt censorship, (they don't have that right, that's why my show exists in the first place) but uncomfortable in the sense that when times get rough like this, they likely won't be planning to "have my back" when things really kick into next gear and whole days get slashed instead of merely hours.

When I found out about this, I checked to see if maybe I could come in early to work on my show. In the old days, they used to have something called "Senior Producer Status." I was just told by a staff member in a very frank, non emotional tone that "senior producer editing hasn’t existed for a quarter or so." Well forget I even asked then! You see what I mean? Oh, and that's from my so-called friend at PCMTV.

The following appeared in my email an hour ago:

Dear PCM Producers & Stakeholders:

It need not be said, but the national and local fiscal picture continues to worsen, and this has affected Portland Community Media. Although the stimulus bill was recently passed by Congress, we do not know how these dollars will directly affect PCM. Meanwhile, we have been aggressively seeking alternative funding to diversify our funding base.

Given these financial concerns, PCM plans to reduce public hours by 10 hours per week. Beginning April 1, PCM will be open to the public for 32 hours per week with the new public hours as follows:

Wednesday-Friday 5-10pm

Saturday 10am-8pm

Sunday 1-8pm

PCM has tried to prevent the cut in public hours. However, we are anticipating up to a 5 percent city budget cut that could start as early as this fiscal year-before June 30-and this will be the fourth budget cut for PCM in seven years. We have been working hard to reduce our looming deficit. We have had to lay off and reduce hours for some staff while also doubling employee insurance premiums. PCM has instituted a modest user fee for producers even though additional revenue will be lost as we offset our deficit. Additionally, we have had to rearrange staff positions and consider future staffing reductions to maintain the organization at a functioning level.

In an effort to lessen the impact of fewer public hours, PCM has only shortened public hours during slow periods. There is no future date for when these hours will return to previous public hours. When the budget outlook goes back to normal, PCM will consider reverting to 42 public hours per week.

We regret the inconvenience this causes our community. However, we believe this is in the best interest of everyone concerned and a wise move, allowing PCM to offer the best in local programming, media education and youth media programs to its communities.

If you have questions, contact Alain LeTourneau at 503-288-1515 ext.113. Thank you for supporting PCM. We look forward to serving you.

Sincerely,

Sylvia McDaniel, Chief Executive
Portland Community Media



Why is it that valued producers only have input in controlling setting meeting where PCMTV leadership controls the mike? Oh right! That's because 'we the people' aren't in charge of anything...

Perhaps Sylvia needs to come on the show and explain the situation to the people instead of sending out emails telling us that this our only solution and to hope for the best that the stimulus packages will work.

I'm trying to be nice guy. But I want answers...NOW.

Alex Ansary

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It seems there was a lot of interest in this topic.

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Social Engineering 2009

Ideas are more powerful than guns. We would not let our enemies have guns, why should we let them have ideas. ~ Stalin

For a world that has access to an abundance of information and historical records, I find it quite peculiar that most humans can't seem to figure out why our planet is now experiencing the beginning of a sweeping new wave of violence, crime and social disruption.

It is a fact that a poor economy has a direct result on crime rates, as well as mental health.

Perhaps looking at the cause and effect of events in the world has become too much for people that can't seem to stomach the truth about how serious things could get in the near future when the bailout package doesn't work.

As our nation's corporate controlled leadership continues to gamble with the sovereignty and security of the United States, the families and children continue to suffer. It's no surprise that the military has escalated their plans to 'manage' waves of civil unrest throughout our country. They expect a very large, angry population to rise against the government. What events are they expecting in the near future that concern them so greatly?

While we sleep, they are are preparing for an ENDGAME scenario. The military no longer has a problem hiring foreign nationals to do the job of going to war for the military industrial complex. At a later date, those same foreign troops may be used domestically inside the United States to maintain security during a crisis when American marines can't or won't enforce martial law.

The military also has no problem hiring convicted felons to add to the bloodbath. As far as the Pentagon is concerned, these men are nothing more than necessary fuel sources for the military machine.

Our nation's foreign and domestic policy is breaking the back of this country and our collective moral fiber. It's also destroying the United States military by using our troops to fight an illegal war, and to incrementally build an unconstitutional police state within the borders of the United States.

It needs to be pointed out that it's never a good sign when your military boys are committing suicide in record numbers that exceed the death toll of those killed by enemy fire. It is an even worse sign when women in the military are statistically more likely to be gang raped by their fellow soldiers than killed by enemy fire.

With the approach of the next great depression which will rival the last, we are now starting to see waves of violent crime hit the nation. Throughout history, depressions have brought a collective of unfavorable changes to society.

Human beings adapt themselves to their survival needs for better or for worse. People need to eat and pay their rent. It has been said that the Nazis' were just doing their job and following orders.

History shows that the bulk of the population will move in the direction of the jobs that are available if it is needed for their basic day to day survival in the so-called civilized world. It's living out of fear of not surviving or not being safe that often causes people to make a decision that goes their better judgment and integrity.

It's kind of like looking at a wealthy land owning warlord who owns all the water rights and is enslaving the people that are dependent on his water for survival and life. In this case, the ruler is in a position to make the people do whatever he wants them to do in order for them to be allowed to drink what he claims is his water.

Some of the new ways of life that humans adapt themselves to during an economic meltdown are: (but not limited to) spikes in alcoholism and drug addiction, endemic depression, suicide, consuming food of poor quality, degraded health, educational system meltdown, moral and spiritual bankruptcy, people fighting each other, relationship and family problems, homelessness, ghetto life, rise in fanatical cults, gangs, organized crime, murder, car thefts, bank robberies, home invasions, the adult industry, prostitution, rape, and the human trafficking of women.


All of these things are beginning to manifest incrementally in our country and these changes in society have also been happening throughout the world where the economic situation has been dire for some time now. Much of the third world has been going through these nightmares for years. Our own society has already seen it's share of these social ills. Only now its about to be felt tenfold in what once was the world's largest military and economic superpower. That is something that is not new, nor something that most people will have the privilege of ignoring for much longer.

There clearly are some serious issues with our modern civilization that must be addressed in some way. It should also be noted that as concerned as some people seem to be about their own economic future, few appear to be publicly looking for the real answers as to why things are manifesting the way and at the rate that they are.

While the American people aren't responsible for the economic crash underway, the people in control of our financial system are guilty of treason. It are these corrupted individuals that are working their hardest to make sure the population and the next generation foots the bill and voluntarily remains asleep during the process.

Meanwhile, the bailout money seems to have no positive impact on our economy. It's actually having a negative effect. Now that the rest of the world can see that the fake liquidity of the Federal Reserve and big banks can no longer work magic, we are about to sleepwalk into a free fall of the US economy and our social order.

Headlines that report an increasing level of gang violence in small times has already become commonplace. In my city we are currently experiencing an unprecedented rise in shootings not seen in several decades.


While solutions to some of these changes seem out of reach, we cannot overlook our responsibility to watch over our young and to protect them from those that seek their unquestioned loyalty and servitude. Our children are growing up in a world exposed to alarmingly high levels violence in video games and in movies. Their understanding of the world, themselves, values, desires, goals often are shaped by these outlets. While they aren't actually in the battlefield, they are in a simulated sense via the technology available in the digital age. The military has already announced their plan to recruit young gamers to operate the killer drones in the middle east. If that wasn't a red flag, the similarity in technology and joy sticks between modern video games and the Army's robotic army is increasing by the day. What will become of these children in the future when their are no jobs and the world is awash in war and technology?

Meanwhile, some other children like those attempting to stay alive in the Middle East and Africa get to witness their villages destroyed, their mothers and sisters raped, and their fathers executed before their very eyes. Only our nation's military doesn't have a policy of counting the dead civilians. What will become of these children in the future?

This is an evil place in time where the mass media delivers to a sea of viewers each night a whole new set of nightmares and terrifying visions of not only the future, but the day at hand. This box has become the parent, in a world where the parents are also enslaved to the same system, often too busy working (or trying to find work) to tend to the development and nurturing of the family. The world the children are growing up is a world where their leaders say this will be a hundred year war, according to PNAC documents.

Now here's a question: How is the next generation supposed to respond to this declaration that the rest of their lives will likely be filled with wars, rumors of war, a police state, cameras on every corner, famines, super viruses, terrorism, and many other FILL IN THE BLANK events?!

These events are being engineering in order to re-social engineer our society and world. Their goal is to move us and our children rapidly into the machine, into a place where their is no place to hide.

If we have any connection to our own humanity still left in us, we have to nurture that and realize that we can't take our ability to love and feel for granted. One day people may forget much of their past and what things were like when we didn't have to thumb scan to travel to another state or to pay for our groceries. This is where our passion for life and experience comes into play. It is our responsibility to plant basic seeds of wisdom and to remind people that we used to be live a more peaceful existence before the events were orchestrated, and that the emerging New World Order is not our savior but the consumer of humanity.

There will be many children growing up in the future that will be searching for answers and truth, and some could be more intelligent than we think. Whether its our child or not, we need to be willing to care for others in a time of crisis where mindful leadership may need to emerge to shed some light on what's going on when the crisis happens, and how we can work together to remedy the situation.

The globalists' are hellbent on creating a society where the people devour each other in a crisis that has been perpetuated on the people. It's our job to expose the plots and already begin to take part in a very long, but meaningful and important rebuilding effort.

"In the end, we will remem​ber not the words​ of our enemi​es,​ but the silen​ce of our frien​ds.​"​ - Marti​n Luthe​r King Jr.

Twilight Zone USA

Today the lies are megaphoned throughout the land, so loud that at times, the people cannot hear their own thoughts or feel their own energy. These lies are attacks on our consciousness and are used to intimidate us into submitting to the reality that they want us to subscribe to.

Its not OK to think

Its not OK to feel

Its not OK to hear

Its not OK to know...

These are some of the messages that currently are being broadcast in the direction of our minds.

This is morphing into a quasi futuristic world where the herd animals fall into line with the consensus reality of their local peer group. Welcome to the machine.

Living in the age of mass media and hyper technology has made it obvious that its become a world of invasive advertising, mind control and in your face big brother policing of your world.

That is why the government has an obvious interest in making sure people keep watching TV and quickly get through the digital switchover. The programming on the TV servers the interests of the sociopathic killers in control of the military industrial complex. They call it PROGRAMMING for a reason.

Many people have already tuned out of the box. But that doesn't mean that their perspectives or ideas are outside the box of the corporate controlled version of reality. Often people parrot information that have heard from somewhere else, even if it's not accurate. Those views they may be parroting may be White House talking points for all we know. Often, they sure sound like it.

For others, their view of their world is shaped by their family, or it gets through via peer pressure. People don't want to feel like they stand out. They want to fit in. Human psychology. Interesting thing. Herd behavior. Also interesting. More terrifying. Watching full on mass psychosis in full stereo surround sound often renders me speechless.

They use fear to control us.

The use fear to keep us from opening our minds.

If its between fear and love, where are we?

A major shift could be taking place in the next couple of months. We need to be as healthy as we can in every way in order to weather this storm now touching ground.

It is through the Pain, that We can Find the Way Home

Nothing in this universe stays the same, and even our own lives appear to be going through cycles, some of them dramatic, just like our world. A deeper level of joy and understanding comes from accepting some of the realities of this dimension and being able to objectively look at all the information without becoming emotionally out of balance or depressed. The real challenge lies in our ability to overcome any feelings of powerlessness or worthlessness and I feel our strength is greater than what we are currently aware of. I suspect we all have much to learn about the other dimensions of strength that are beyond the physical realm.

Those delusions about our collective lack of power come from our culture and world of mass media which is constantly bombarding our subconscious mind with feelings of lack or loss unless we assimilate our behavior, personality, and appearance only to move on to consume a particular product, idea, or belief system. For most our society, the information about how the global elite is destroying sectors of our planet and our traditional cultures is hard to deal with because it’s traumatizing and upsetting. It rocks their world view about how the power structure is set up. It brings up some of their prized belief systems about not only their leaders, but about themselves and where they are going in their own lives. This pain needs to be looked at instead of disregarded for another pill, drink, smoke, pair of shoes, car, trip, movie, etc. Without this internal alarm system, how would we even know that something is wrong in the body? How would we know that the stove that we accidentally just put our hand on is burning the skin on our palm? We wouldn't. Pain is the very thing that can shock people into making a change in the world. If we numb our instincts and overly mechanize our actions and feelings, aren't we becoming less human and more robotic? By being more aware of our feelings and warning systems in the body, we have a greater chance of surviving the modern urban jungle, present day Babylon.

We live in a country of abundance and overindulgence. The challenge is getting the monkey off our back and in this case, the addiction to constantly feeling good all of the time. We are living in the age where material wealth and your ability to get what you want - when you want it appears to some people to be a reflection of someone attaining a high level of spiritually based upon their ability to manifest things for themselves and their ability to smile ear to ear at the spa while bombs are dropping on villages somewhere else. It comes down to an obsession with the self, particularly a deep attachment to physical pleasure. At times, it reminds me of the controlled scientific experiments where mice would be wired and set up to administer themselves doses of pleasure enhancing drugs by hitting a button over and over. Their addiction to the dopamine producing drug eventually caused their own deaths. I see this country coexisting in a bubble with people living in a reality not too different than the movie, 'The Truman Show'. Is America living in a similar experiment on a level that we don't fully see yet?

In the coming years, the old structures and old ideas need to be removed from the planet as well as the old energy itself. In the new age / metaphysical movement, the misconception that a lot of people have is that the shift will be a gentle and light one, full of pleasure, and that exposing the darkness of the world gives the evil ones more power. This is a narrow perspective of how the universe works and a misunderstanding of the law of attraction they many in the world claim to be an expert on. Its like looking at the stars in the sky through the lens of a McDonalds straw. I see a world where the way to the solution is to first begin speaking out about the problem, so that there is awareness of it. Darkness cannot exist in the presence of the light and what we are doing is shinning the spotlight on the shadows that people couldn't see before as angels in human bodies are being called to awaken and begin activation. How can a cure for a disease be found unless the primary root cause of the problem has been discovered? How can we connect the dots until we take the time to open our awareness to each individual dot, no matter what we find? What we need is a greater understanding of the universal laws of cause and effect.

If we are to change the world as we know it, consciousness has to be higher than the consciousness that created the problem. A lot of people have an unseen psychic potential deep inside of themselves; it’s where our powerful human imagination seems to draw from at times. Unfortunately, people are very attached to certain belief systems and outcomes in the future. This can disrupt any information trying to come through from source because the mind shields itself from ideas that may appear to run contrary to their current operating system. But we cannot run from the feelings we are having inside and the dreams and visions we are having at night. The more that part of us is suppressed, the more inner turmoil is experienced. We also have to admit that the systems of control didn't build their supercomputer run police state nightmare overnight. It took some time to build and it's going to take some time to remove. That cannot happen without consciousness raising to the point of being able to face the reality that there are dark demonic forces in our world projecting layers of deceptions on the human population to keep in a state on mental, physical, and spiritual bondage.

When I look at the world today and see the chaos and shake up in relationships from the macrocosm to the microcosm, I can't help but wonder what changes are taking place in the human body and where it's coming from. When we step back and take a look at the big picture with loving compassion and without fear of what will happen to us, our understanding and empathy increases. When we can learn to breathe, face reality as it is with an attitude of non attachment and equanimity, our awareness expands. It's time to get as honest as we can about what we need to change about ourselves so we can be that much more effective at changing the world. In the end truth is self evident. It is a lie that needs an argument. There is no army that can stop an idea whose time has come.

Wake me from this dream

And that is EXACTLY what this feels like. How can anyone tell me this is the real world? I think the real world created this one. That's what really fascinates me. I mean, I'm literally living in the twilight zone where TO THINK is to stand out looking like a freak. I cannot assimilate myself into this world any deeper than I have already been pressured to. Insanity is not a road I am seeking in this life. It's like nails on the chalk board. No, wait... It's worse. It's like getting food poisoning, or maybe... like getting hit with one of Raytheon's new pain ray toys! Yeah, that's the ticket. If we are to survive the coming changes, we must be prepared to go through the emotional fire and that goes against the social engineering and mind control. I simply want be the fish swimming upstream. I yearn to follow my true nature. We were all born to be free and living in a world that goes again those principles literally makes us sick to our stomach. BTW, please pass me the bucket, I gotta pause for a sec.

I think about how mad this world has become and I think of romance. Where did it go? Another world out there beyond the doom and gloom perhaps? A nice reprieve from the insanity?

I think about the woman I love a lot, even though her feelings for me are a bit different. I read about the horrors of the the world, the rapes, the killings, the callous nature of big brother. I just want to defend and protect and right now I'm a bit alarmed at how quickly it's all escalated. Well.... in my ventures in that world of romance, I keep seeing the mind numbing signs that I have to dumb myself down just a bit to have a special moment with someone, be it romantic, friendly, or otherwise. In other words, self censorship. Out of the right brain, and into the left brain. Ahhhh.... Just like the workplace, how nice! The truth is that the things I share with people scare them silly and make them feel just plain uncomfortable. My reality is a bit much for most people. It's like I got an energy field around me that's a wee bit on the intense side. It hurts inside because I want to protect the weak. Its like a double edged blade that twists on the way out. Hmmmm, I'm no super hero but this sure sounds like a weird comic book plot. Only it's not.


I will not change however, for my life does not exist to have the right mate, or companions, supporters, family. I am called to do greater things than have a ball on Broadway while getting my rocks off. There's something larger at hand. I want to wake up MEN AND WOMEN. I want to see our species be happy, to truly see loving unions between our sexes, races, and other illusionary separations that we seem to think are real. I want to see the love vibration extend itself in such a dramatic way that the darkness engulfing this planet cannot sustain itself. In other words, its not humanity or life that needs to leave the planet, its the old energy that must be washed away by the incoming tsumani of great change. I've been ranting about that for a while now, and I'm not alone.

At the same time, I don't want to simulate drugging myself by signing up to the latest new age seminar where nothing about the real world is discussed. I want be around true LIGHT WORKERS that understand that happiness really CAN come from helping others in ADDITION to the meditation sessions and other methods of raising our energy. I don't want to live a life bouncing from self help book to self help group just focused on Alex and what's up with him. Been there, done that. It's not fulfilling. That is so 1995! (I did that stuff back when I was 15 or so). No, I'm not into the bench warming or self seeking bubbly enlightenment that requires no ACTION or PARTICIPATION in life. My purpose is to shatter the enslaving bubbles around people so that they may understand the architecture of the cage they live in. This way they can find the DOOR out or at least begin the process of finding the door. We need to identify a problem first before we can fix something. Coming to terms with how corrupt the system is is nearly impossible when you are in competition with certain male functional belief systems. (AKA operating systems.)

I choose to live a reality of TRUTH TELLING out of compassion. To me, that is a much larger piece of walking the spiritual path. We are the watchmen. I don't want to leave my brothers and sisters drooling on the side of the road eating a government hand out bag of GMO corn chips, drinking fluoridated NESTLE tap water to survive as they wait for FEMA to arrive and save them from themselves ( I mean question, detain, slap, tag, and vaccinate them). The poor things have had their minds raped at different levels of the psychological spectrum of thought! DOESN'T ANYONE IN THE WORLD CARE?! Ok. I'm ranting now. Back to the point.



The reality is I am not alone. You can see much of what I see. There must be something said about living a reality where you can peer into the future, beyond the stars, and begin to connect with who you really are WHILE living the American nightmare as you prepare yourself for the days of urban survival that are waiting in the wings. I mean, we can SEE so much! Why are we here NOW at this time in history?

I look down upon the present day valley of death as I realize that I am a modern day peasant in an increasingly high tech kingdom of terror and destruction. I can hear the horsemen of doom galloping on their genetically modified horse monsters as they unleash their swords (bioweapons) and prepare for the kill. They have come for blood. Our blood. We are still seeking to identify who is really behind this mess. Meanwhile my primitive, spiritual, and intuitive defense of the species must go on to tackle a world where the consensus reality of consumeristic insanity is living off the bones of the dying world and calling it 'living.' That is not living. This is a death culture and we are now growing physically sick of it all.

I want change and I want it now. I will never give up because I feel like this is what it means to be alive. To defend. To love. To heal. To speak up for what's right. It's all I know, that's the truth and I think it's for a reason.... No one can wake me from this dream but myself. I will get to that point, when I take the right steps in my life and same goes for you.